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Crashed and Burn...

Monday, March 06, 2006

I hit ultimate rock bottom today. PreCalculus test day- I didn't just fail this test I obliterated it. I've hit an all time breaking point where I've realized I have bitten off more than I can chew. What the hell happend? I know what happend, my great underpressure skills ran away from me.

I dig my professor he's a great guy, and to boot he likes me. This is the 2nd Math class I've taken with him and he knows I bust my ass. I walked into his office about to lose my ever loving mind and said..... I'm going to fail and I wanted to warn you - I have no clue what the hell I've been doing the past 8 weeks. He knows I've had to do alot on top of being sick on and off. He's a kind man and understanding. He also has faith in me that I will redeam myself and he'll help me get there. I told him the truth I haven't had the time, the energy or the dedication I did last semester. He liked my honesty... I said I take full responceability for slacking, he appreciated too.

I put my Independant consulting on hold as well today. I don't need the added pressures. My mom is coming into town tomorrow. Pray for me, Pray for a good time and no fighting. My father - in - law has fractured 2 vertibre in his back, I feel for the man he's had it quite rough lately. My husband is holding up well he's a strong man, but I worry about him sometimes, wasn't the same after coming back from Iraq with war and all. What will be will be and he knows I'll be here if he needs me. I used to be really strong I handled everything alone, I mean I got used to it. Some where some how I've gotten soft and have gotten to the point I wanted someone else to deal with the crap and take care of me for a while. That's over. I think the old determind me is on the mend. Day by Day.

I'm exercizing again everyday or at least 5 to 6 days a week. It's made the biggest difference in my attitude. Meditating everyday for at least 10 mins makes a difference too. I'm getting healthy and I can feel it. Thanks for everyones support, I know you don't all comment but I know you're there and if I can make one bit of difference or help someone in any way thats a wonderful thing in it's self.

"One day at a time, No Guilt, Move ON!" www.dwlz.com

posted by Spicy Cracker @ 10:31 PM

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